On Thursday they set Drew's headstone. I think it looks awesome. Drew would love it.
It's almost been three months since Drew died. I think about him frequently, every day. Everything reminds me of him.
For example, yesterday I was driving my scooter by Walgreens and I thought about the last time I was with him outside of his house and how we stopped to get gum and some prescriptions. I'm always thinking about whether or not he would like this movie or this food. Drew ate a piece of gum from this same pack. I should text Drew to tell him about the new bishopric. I wish I could spend time with Drew on my b-day. Drew would want to go to this concert. He'd be up for this road trip. Drew edited the bad stuff out of this movie. Drew loved to go to Best Buy. I used to go to the temple with Drew and I loved it. Drew loved Fuddruckers but he'd go to Five Guys cause I like it.
Before Drew died, I didn't really let my mind think about him dying. I would just tell myself, "he's still here, just be happy you get to spend time with him." When I was with him I always wanted to make things feel as normal and real as possible. I remember restraining myself from stopping him from doing the dishes at my house that last week. I thought, if he feels up to doing the dishes, then I should let him. Before I left his house, the last time I saw him (May 22), I said, "see ya tomorrow."
In the fall, when volleyball starts and a new season of Survivor begins, I'll be reminded of Drew time and time again. I'm happy for the reminders and the memories. I remember talking with Drew about what it will be like after we die. We both came up with all kinds of ideas and I keep thinking now how lucky he is because he actually knows. I'm a bit jealous.
I made this video for Drew's b-day. I'm not the only friend of Drew who loves and misses him.
Here are some words of advice Drew gave me as well as a few things he taught me by his example:
You can’t fight crazy
Don’t let other people determine your happiness
Attend the temple
Bear testimony simply and in the way you live your life
Find the unique things about people and embrace them
Get to know people
Always be nice
Always be real
Be generous with your time and your money and yourself
Always make people feel like they are the only ones in the room
Think before you speak
How you feel matters only to you. What you do matters to others.
Live life to have fun
Develop meaningful relationships with family and friends
Thanks for all the birthday wishes. I feel loved. I tried all day not to think about the fact that the night before I backed into my nephew's fiance's car and caused significant damage to both vehicles. I guess that is why we pay insurance.
Last week at this time I was pumping up my tires, setting out my shoes, and trying to squeeze into my wet suit for my 7:30 AM start time.
This was my first Olympic distance triathlon and I was nervous. I knew I could do the 1 mile swim and the 26 mile bike ride. But to run about 6 miles after both of those events was going to be hard and I was right.
SWIM ... One of the reasons the Spudman is such a popular event is because the swim is so easy. I had never swam a whole mile in open water before, only in a pool, so I wasn't sure what to expect. Well it was a great swim, very refreshing, and over before I knew it.
BIKE ... The bike was fine. The course was on mostly flat, country roads. It just took a while to complete. I am slow and so I may have only passed one or two people the whole ride. I was passed by numerous bikers from heats after mine. This was actually a great thing because so many of these bikers that passed me gave me words of encouragement. These triathletes are a friendly, nice bunch. My friend, Ryan (the Ironman, swim coach), passed me and his heat was 30 minutes behind mine.
RUN ... I parked my bike at the transition station and my legs felt like jello. Are you kidding me that I have to run 6 miles now? And in the heat? This was by far the hardest part. I probably ran about 50% of the course and walked the other half. I just didn't have enough in me. I didn't feel too bad because there were a lot of walk/joggers around me and most people seemed to be struggling. I think most of the tough runners had already passed. On the run I saw my friend Emily who was cheering on her husband, Aaron. She snapped a few photos of me:
It was fun because a lot of the people that live along the run route in Burley, ID were out spraying down runners as they passed. I loved that. It felt good.
At one point on the run, I stopped at a water station and the teenage boy volunteer said to the other teenage boy volunteer, "this isn't fun anymore." I jumped in to their conversation and said, "yeah, no kidding." They got a good chuckle and I still had 4 miles left.
I was happy that there were so many heats and that mine was toward the beginning ... it is possible that I could have come in last.
I did finish the race and boy was I glad to have that over. The night before was fun because Liz and I ran into Ryan and some of his friends and we ended up sleeping at Hailey's house in Burley which was very convenient, much more convenient than what we had arranged. It was fun to meet such nice, fun people who were also gonna do the race the next morning.
We drove home right after the race and I ate the potato they gave me for dinner. I went to bed at 9:00 PM that night and slept better than I had in months. I'm going to try and get in again next year and my goal will be to run the whole time.