It's hard to know how to feel. It's hard to know if I should laugh, because a lot of what she says and does is really, really funny. It's hard to know if I should cry because sometimes I don't like it when we laugh at her and I'm sad when I think about my real mom. That mom would not think this situation was funny.
That mom ...
- wanted her kids to be happy and would sacrifice much to see that they were
- went back to work after raising a bunch of kids to have enough money to send a couple of those kids on a mission at the same time
- worked very hard at every church calling she ever had, especially gospel doctrine, temple worker and missionary
- read to her kids ... even when we were older. I remember listening to my mom read Ann Dee and I books like the "Secret Garden" and "Anne of Green Gables"
- would make funny faces and voices of various characters when she read to us
- bought books for her grandkids for birthdays and Christmas
- was proper and polite and taught her kids to be proper and polite
- worried about her kids and lost hours and hours of sleep because of it
- gave birth to 9 kids and lost one at 5 weeks old
- loved her parents
- wanted me to be a great violin player
- sang the hymns in church in alto
- was very anxious when my brothers played football because she was always worried they would get hurt
- always bought me a new Easter dress
- loved chocolate and would hide it around the house and in the car
- once surprised me and Ann Dee and took us to Disneyland even though I know she was tired and I didn't even ride on the roller coasters
- loved scary movies
- used funny words and make funny sounds ... like cumi (butt)
Katy, Ann Dee, Mom at Stewart Falls
- eats ice cream every day
- sleeps a lot
- doesn't always know who she is talking to but is so skilled socially that you might never know it
- still sings the hymns in alto
- doesn't know what holiday it is or what season it is but she always tells me to wear a coat and shoes
- laughs a lot
- makes us laugh a lot
- sometimes gets disoriented and lost because she is looking for the people or the kids
- once asked me, while on a walk, if my mom knew where I was
- doesn't worry as much or forgets things too quickly to worry about them
- loves to read letters and cards and notes sent to her by her friends and family
- loves movies and sporting events
- loves her Larry and feels most safe and comfortable with him
I love both this mom and that mom. Even though sometimes I really, really want to talk to that mom. Happy Mother's Day Mom ... no matter where you are, you are my mom.
Katy -- This is probably the first time I ever read your blog, so I had no idea of your mom's situation until now. Bless you and your folks.
Katy, I love reading your blog, and especially today's post. Not to say I know how you feel, but my sweet Grandma is at this exact place right now, and it's tough. Like you said about your mom, I love 'this' grandma, and 'that' grandma. But I miss 'that' one.
You really inspire me-always have. Thanks for being 'real' always, even though we don't know eachother very well-I feel connected in your thoughts sometimes. You are sweet! And congrats on losing weight...you look amazing. I've forgotten your weight loss blog address...what is it?
How is the knee holding up? Are you healing? I see your crutches are in the closet ;)
Such a sweet post. Thanks for sharing. And what in the sam hill is AnnDee wearing in that balcony picture?
i loved your honesty in this post. your mom and that mom are both very lucky to have you as a daughter!
Thanks for sharing such a beautiful post. Xoxo
I can't imagine what you are going through. Loved this post.
I like what Lindy said, that both of your Moms are lucky to have you.
Loved looking at the pics!
My grandma, who is as close to me as my mom, is going through this right now. And you hit the nail on the head. Thank you.
this broke my heart. i'm so sorry you (and she) have to experience this
you also make me not know whether to laugh or cry...i did both.
I love this post.
Katy, I am so sorry. My mom's older brothers both had/have Alzheimers. I have fond memories of your mom.
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